I gave up one of my dogs this weekend. Before you start blowing raspberries or composing the nasty gram, let me just say, yes, I am a bad owner. A bad owner with good intentions.
You see, I saved this dog from an abusive home where she was being attacked routinely by other dogs. I provided a roof over her head, fed her, gave her water, a big back yard to play in, and a buddy to play with.
And this is how she returned the favor:
* She pissed and shit on my carpet. When this became a daily thing, I had to put a gate up to keep the dogs in the kitchen.
* She dug holes in the yard, even after I would refill them with her own crap. (In theory, filling a dog's hole with their own crap should dissuade them from digging.)
* She fought with the neighbor's dogs continuously
through and
under the fence. If this was an occasional thing, I can handle it. Dogs will be dogs, right? But this was her primary occupation, like it was her full-time job. Which meant it was my full-time job to tell her to
shut the fuck up.
* She liked to chew on plastic. My nephew's toys, a piece of trash she snagged out of the trash can, and most recently the plastic containers I use for young seedlings. Not even two weeks ago, she ruined every viable seedling in a set of Chinese Lanterns I started. She just dumped the plant and chewed the shit out of the container.
Now there are other reasons I could mention --her general skittishness around other people and dogs, her leaky urethra, the jumping on the fence thing-- but seriously, four reasons is plenty.
Any one of those things - or perhaps all of them-- could be fixed with enough patience, dedication, and good advice from the Dog Whisperer. But frankly, I don't have enough patience, dedication, and I've got other things to concentrate on
besides getting my dog to behave.
So I guess there's a certain point where you have to ask yourself, where does your obligation to a dog end and your obligation to yourself begin? This weekend, I discovered the answer.
PS: I couldn't take her down to the shelter myself. Not because of my drivers license situation, but I was physically, spiritually, mentally unable to do it. In short, I chickened out...because I knew I would chicken out. Like Jesus, I'm willing to suffer so that others --a little dog for instance-- do not. But like Judas, I'm also a coward. I didn't have the balls to pull the trigger myself.
So I asked my brother. He refused.
So I asked my Mom. She agreed to do it for me, although afterwards she told me that she's never going to do anything like that again. Apparently the guy who worked at the shelter was a complete jerk about the whole thing, such a jerk that he made my Mom, who usually has nerves of steel and not a weepy bone in her body, cry.
That is an unforgivable sin. If you work at an animal shelter, you should have some understanding for the people who are giving up pets. You may not agree with it, you may be put out by yet another dog you'll have to take care of, but you should try and have some empathy. If not, some basic professionalism would be nice.
Dumb Friends League, indeed.